My Thank You Letter

Don't know where to begin. Have no idea of where to start. These chains on my heart are heavy. My self esteem drowning in doubt. Tell me at what time is being the best man you can be not enough? Explain to me when you wake up every morning with the intentions of doing the right thing (taking care of family, going to work, taking care of home) that you are considered selfish? Gave you my heart. Opened my door when you needed comfort from the storm. Loved you. Took care of you when you were sick, supported you through your darkest times. Yet when storms comes in our lives you decided to leave. Yes mistakes were made. Accountability for my sins I took. A plan of action, I put into motion to become a better man for you and for my family. But according to you it was too little too late. Many nights I spent crying. Many days I spent angry. What am I to do with this pain? Where am I to go when my home is no more? In the lord's arms I found rest. In him my healing began. I just wanted to write you a thank you letter. Thank you for turning your back on me when I needed you most. Thank you for turning off your love when you felt things were no longer convenient for you. Thank you for giving up on me. For it was during my time of great pain that a new man, a better man was born. One that will never turn their back on those that love and support him. Thank you God for never giving up on me. Thank you for allowing me to see my worth. Thank your for assuring me that men that follow and worship you will always be divinely favored!

Shades Of Life

Truly my yesterday is not what it once was. I was a man without purpose. A student without a teacher. A bird without a song. a soul without a guide. Then one day I met Jesus who gave my life purpose. I will never forget the day he called me and asked me to come home. For my soul yearned for him and when I said yes, I hurt no more. My past I felt was behind me. My past sins thrown into the sea. But never in a million years did I think he would reintroduce you to me. When we met I was but a child with dreams of loving you for life. When I looked at you, I wanted nothing more than to make you my wife. But something happened along the way that put us on different roads. I was angry and frustrated that an important part of my life had been taken from me and why I didn't know. For years I searched and wanted what was once lost. I admit, I looked for it with the wrong people. Oh so much time I lost. Finally with my soul discouraged I gave up my search. With my heart broken and repaired so much. I shuddered and cringed at any one's touch. Then one day God spoke to me in the form of an email, someone who had been lost to me for years had been suddenly reintroduced. To think about it now brings tears to my eyes. Apprehensive I was because Jesus was now the guardian of my heart. Never did I realized that you were predestined to take part. Time has passed and our love has been renewed. We are to become life long companions. I'm so glad the lord chose you. My yesterday is not what it once was....

To Lady Liberty

Words of frustration hit my lips like a cold wind. Thoughts of anxiety and oppression hang on me like loose clothes. Can't understand how I got here. Don't know if the light at the end of the tunnel will fade out before I'm able to reach it. Can't obtain salvation. Can't avoid damnation. Stuck on a rock called a hard place, I reach out for help. Praying that my hand can reach the door. Hoping that my fingers can clutch the knob. Life? Liberty? The pursuit of happiness? What life do I have when I can't afford to take a trip to see the ones responsible for giving me life? How can their be liberty when the middle class in this country are in shackles? How can I pursue happiness when she runs a marathon just to avoid me? Can't understand how I got here. Question marks fill my future. Uncertainty occupies my present. Promise has been left in the past. I pray for a change that has been long overdue. I hope for a tomorrow that is filled with prosperity and happiness. Too long has this country lived in darkness. Too long have the powers that be oppressed and stolen from our most precious resource: People. The backbone of this country has been broken. It's self esteem and swagger taken. It's time to take back that which is ours. It's time to help and heal this nation. Lady Liberty it's time to listen up. It's time that you hear the pleas of this nation. It's time you see the tears and struggles of so many. The time for change is now. The time for politics has passed. It's time you and I had a sit down Lady Liberty. It's time we had a long talk....

Father Figure..

Days left void, nights spent alone wondering where my youth has gone. A life unfulfilled. A puzzle left incomplete. Raging against the machine called life I fight a battle that is one sided. Wish I knew why you left. Wondering why you walked away from this painting and left it unfinished. Birthdays, holidays, special occasions; your prescense I longed for. Waiting by the phone, waiting by the door said you one come to see me but didn't. I remember. I was four. Never got a birthday card or even a hello. Never was able to ask you mother may I and you say no. You left a son without a role model. A house without its head. You left my mother to cry a lifetime worth of tears. Oh how sometimes I wished you were dead. Anger grew to hatred. Hatred to frustration. I still remember smiling when I didn't see you at my graduation. Years turned into memories. Time began to slip away. Now that I am a man, there are some things that I need to say. A conversation must take place. Some issues need to be addressed. Only problem is that a year ago, you were laid to rest. Fathers, is this the type of legacy we want to leave for our children? Fathers day is right around the corner. Do you know where your children are? More important, do they know you?
Blu....
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Just A Taste

I'm writing a letter with no recipient in mind. Leaving all reservations and concerns to open debate. Hoping that my audience is broad and listening. Praying that my words have lasting appeal. Just throwing my views and reflections in the wind hoping that they find their way. Like Avant, I want to share my thoughts and never be separated from the vine. Diversity, intelligence and soul is what I want to inject to all those who take a seat in my office.....

Tune in next week for another edition. In the meantime if you would like to add your words or thoughts, feel free to do so!
Blu...