Father Figure..

Days left void, nights spent alone wondering where my youth has gone. A life unfulfilled. A puzzle left incomplete. Raging against the machine called life I fight a battle that is one sided. Wish I knew why you left. Wondering why you walked away from this painting and left it unfinished. Birthdays, holidays, special occasions; your prescense I longed for. Waiting by the phone, waiting by the door said you one come to see me but didn't. I remember. I was four. Never got a birthday card or even a hello. Never was able to ask you mother may I and you say no. You left a son without a role model. A house without its head. You left my mother to cry a lifetime worth of tears. Oh how sometimes I wished you were dead. Anger grew to hatred. Hatred to frustration. I still remember smiling when I didn't see you at my graduation. Years turned into memories. Time began to slip away. Now that I am a man, there are some things that I need to say. A conversation must take place. Some issues need to be addressed. Only problem is that a year ago, you were laid to rest. Fathers, is this the type of legacy we want to leave for our children? Fathers day is right around the corner. Do you know where your children are? More important, do they know you?
Blu....
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